....i've been fucked up for 4 days now, and all i wanna do is sleep, but i can't..i'm comin down hard too, it sucks. after this, i'm takin a long vacation, especially from drinking, i have to get shit done right now, and this isn't the way to do it...i wish i weren't jobless, but i won't work til at least the end of school so i won't have to worry about juggling finals and graduation in between a job...i've decided to take my basics at NSU, i wanna shoot myself. thing's weren't supposed to happen this way. i was supposed to be outta here by summer and gone for good, but the only scholarship i'm on for is in texas, where i don't wanna be. and my collage financial thing will only pa y for an in-state school..which also sucks, becuase all the schools i've looked at so far in Oklahoma, have really shitty art majors that i hpnestly dono't find worth my time for the shit i wanna do in my life...there'se barely any with audio production majors for that matter...so if you guys find anything with art or audio production(not that marching band orchestra shit...i'm done with that) give me a link or so...it'd be much appreciated...no one ever uses a messenger anymore, what the hell...i feel so isolated, like i haven't talked or had anything to do with anyone( with the exception of last night's drinking). angel is at her dad's for spring break, my firend lela only comes down once in a blue moon...everyone's gone, it's fucking retarded man... now here i sit, watching my dog, my only company, shit on the neighbor's doorstep....good dog, Scooter...